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Post by officerschizo on Jun 25, 2012 21:34:20 GMT
So, I think lots of us who are Schizophrenia or Schizoaffective disorder have this question in mind all the time. The question is for me: "Why, am I taking medication for something that seems to be so "spiritual" in nature to most of us." You see, I am on medication because I hear voices and there are tactile sensations (these are my symptoms) I have been on the medication for quite awhile now and it is helping, the symptoms are almost gone. But, I can still hear the voices even when I am on medication. I would think that this is such a mysterious argument or question that most of us are dealing with right now. The only thing that is important to me is my experiences of it all and I would like to convert it into a book someday so someone else who does not have the disorder or schizophrenia can find out what it's really like. Is it all in our heads, or is it really spiritual in nature, I am starting to believe that it's both. I believe that we are capable of creating such mysterious things in our life that it actually becomes real to us. Anything is possible, anything! It truly is. If you want something bad enough it really can come true, if you put your mind to it. We are all connected to each other whether we believe in it or not.
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Post by abeautifulmind on Jun 27, 2012 4:11:59 GMT
Wow. So well put.
My experiences do seem to have a thread of connection to the universal or whole. I no longer view it as black and white, but as a mixture of responses to the external world. Once I found out the power of my thoughts, I tried to attune them better. Maybe this is why you and I are doing well because we are coming to terms with this. I believe many individuals have an important purpose in the world and that we aren't all cogs in the wheel so to speak.
One other thing I wonder is about the dopamine theory. Not all schizophrenia can be explained by this theory because of how diverse people's experiences are. Just because the inventor of LSD saw a similarity in behavior does not give this theory a solid rational basis. Now they're saying it's "misfiring" receptors it seems like. If more people opened their minds to ideas then we'd be more progressive in western society.
Schizophrenia to me is starting to look like the manifestation of the split between the value of science and the value of the human soul.
I have experienced my thoughts creating and changing reality but the reason I can't prove it is because there are no people to prove it to who can even see it or want to. And the desire is the key to being able to prove it to them. They don't want to prove it. They are too conditioned or afraid. I can't prove this to non-schizophrenics because they aren't open enough to the unknown. This is a really strange thing --how vast the divide is becoming between those who can and are willing to go the extra mile and those who are too comfortable to accept even a notion of transcendence.
A simple minded person will find ANY alternative explanation other than what's right in front of them. The impossible. I used to wonder at impossibility with awe. As a whole, impossibility has seemed to lose favor among the regulars. They want calculations. It makes them think on their feet. But the short cuts are all around us. It doesn't always have to be so complicated. Our gifts may very well be what saves humanity from the end of the world which could be many years in the future, or soon, depending on who really values their life anymore.
One last thought on your topic....although I know I have the ability to change reality I choose not to for now. This is because it seems to me that it has the potential for amazing consequences and wonderful miracles, the problem is we're not ready or I'm not ready to handle them. The laws of nature work against them, I don't know why or how...but it seems you can bypass the order of things, or fool nature for a short time...but like in dreams, they will always bounce back to their original law in time/space. Like light and everything in the universe, we behave by our laws and if I'm not supposed to wake people up with my crazy experiences, that would make sense because it would scare them shitless.
Unlike most interpretations by normal people of those with schizophrenia, we are not less conscious or less empathetic. We probably experience more of a spectrum in thought, emotion, and language then they think we do or they themselves do...but I can't say for sure. Good luck with everything! It can be a hard thing to question, but as long as I take care of myself it hasn't had any adverse effects: the questioning has actually led to more insight and self control.
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